Thursday, 22 February 2018

The moon has acne scars and she's still beautiful

Be Beautiful And Love Yourself

Beauty is only skin deep, and beauty is in the eye of the beholder. As the sayings go, external attractiveness has little to do with overall quality. What may appeal to one person may not to another. Also, there is beauty in the imperfection, one just has to see it.  Most people see beauty in how attractive something or someone looks on the external surface. I believe there is more to the true definition of beauty than meets the eye.

People usually never see beauty for the multitude of perspectives it can offer. Even when one looks at objects displayed in a  store window, the more fancy decor the better. But what if the objects in the window are just placed in a random way, would it still have the same appeal? I think yes.

If one thinks or pictures the moon, it has craters, white in color really plain and ordinary if you really think about it. But if one delves deeper than the surface would there be a form of beauty there to see?

Stars in space, clouds in the sky, the sun reflecting off a river or lake; perhaps animals walking in the forest or displays in a store window. All examples of beauty each on its own.

There is no clear way to define beauty, its really in the eye of the beholder. Also, it comes in a myriad of forms.

Now lastly, every person is their own worst critic. Most people don't see themselves as others see them, they usually see worse. Self perception is very diverse among people. It's important not to compare to others, if you really think about it you cannot have what someone else has and vice versa. Staying positive about one's situation helps, opportunities could begin to open. Try seeing the real beauty instead of the superficial.

Love yourself by doing something positive that you like, then you will exude positive vibes.

Monday, 19 February 2018

Doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will!

Where does doubt come from? In the general sense of mind and thought. It's a feeling that nothing works out for a person and their life basically sucks the shit bag; no matter what they attempt to do. Often times erroneous comparisons are made with people they see in their life or online that achieved similar goals, but they feel they simply cannot measure up. They usually firmly believe and take to heart all the negativity from people around them. If you choose to pursue a goal and you end up facing obstacles self-doubt can manifest in your mind steering you away from achieving the intended goal. One must have incredible discipline and strong will to overcome obstacles. Live through the shit while you are on the way to the light. Reach greatness by not allowing the doubts to control your mind, perseverance is key to success.

Doubt essentially can be a real dream crusher and goal killer. Now, one might attribute life situations as a deterrent to accomplishing goals. Also, the thoughts develop in the mind, like “ oh, that's impossible I can't do it”. Keep in mind the achievement of making plausible dreams that more or less fit with one's cards of life a reality. Self doubt can be perceived as an excuse to remain in the rut or routine created by the individual, halting their progress in life.

Also, doubt should not be confused with failure the two are very dissimilar. Failure is generally trying to do something that may be new or familiar but, never achieving the desired or correct result. Doubt is thinking one is incapable of pursuing the task, due to a physical or mental challenge.

One must understand few basic facts: doubt will only become real if one projects and truly believes in it. Ultimately, it will lead to one's own demise or failure.

Dreams are just that unless the individual decides to make them reality. Remember, self doubt is nothing more than a belief that forms in the mind. It can only turn real if one focuses their energy.

Focus on a plausible dream make it a goal and pursue to the end without letting doubt take control and you lose out.

Saturday, 27 January 2018

Why I do what I do "Rebel"

Many people have posed me the question about why I chose the gothic alternative, rebel lifestyle, that I define as doing things outside society's expectations. Growing up in my generation it was expected that one completes education, chooses a field of profession, marries,  buys a house, then family enters the picture. Most of the people I knew followed that path to some extent. I however, think that there were forces at play guiding me to where I am today since it seems that it was most difficult for me to end up in the traditional family unit. Today, the way of life changed because of the internet. Many things that were taboo even to speak of in previous years are now socially acceptable. To elaborate on this point, it's as if the  invention of the internet suddenly turned taboo into norm. Now, if the internet never materialized would life stay the same? Would time, people and technology progress? I see my way of life as evolution, progress. Also, living out experiences as well.

CriesoftheGoth my personal website will be a detailed account of the various aspects of life I have experienced and still exploring. As the name suggests, various facets of my version of goth alternative will be portrayed through my site from fashion to recipes, various photography, book reads and hobbies.

I like to differentiate myself from the “sheeple”, those who follow society's rules of proper etiquette without knowing the real reason why. The buzz pitch phrases that are regurgitated to the point of nausea like: “everybody is doing it” or “ it's the right thing to do”.  “ This is sooo cool” . Much of this is literally being sold to people through famous media stars, who appear perfect with huge amounts of time and money. It's almost like  a subliminal message being transmitted to the general public minds,  if you want success  this is what to follow no matter what lifestyle you choose. 

I intend to show that it's possible to achieve goals and follow a lifestyle of your choice by positioning yourself with the right person and attitude. It is important also to see the larger picture of those who support you and not let those who disapprove derail you. One thing I noticed is the ones who make the most noise when against something or someone are in reality the lesser in numbers, but people don't notice this fact, they merely focus their attention to the voices they hear.  I prefer to concentrate on the positive supporters who when seeing the bigger picture, are more numerous in numbers. That in my opinion is the key to achieving your set goals in life.

In conclusion, anything can be possible with the right mindset and belief.

Monday, 4 December 2017

Chats and meet-ups:

Many of you send me tons of emails, chat requests, comments to my content on social media, all trying to chat, meet up...etc; some are rude, others super nice....

The Media and Internet unfortunately conditioned people in a way making them narrow minded and oblivious to the obvious. I'm writing this as a condensed article about me.

I'm not looking for boyfriends, lovers or husbands
I'm not single, I have a boyfriend. We've been together since high school and I'm ~40 years old so I've been with him for a long time. We love each other beyond what words can convey.

I'm not a paid model and I don't care for followers/subscribers, or likes to my content
I'm not your average Internet model. I do what I do online because I'm expanding my sexuality and experiences. I'm not online to cater to your fantasies. If you happen to enjoy my content then power to you. However, I'm not interested to hear your criticisms or opinions be it constructive or otherwise. Just enjoy my content and if you have something nice to say I'd love to hear it! Sweet comments are always appreciated.

Don't believe anything I post online! It's nothing but stupid fantasies I play-out; I'm not like that in real life.
All my postings online be it family oriented Facebook or pornographic PornHub, it's all but stupid fantasies I play out, a moment fling nothing more. I'm nothing like that in real life! My modo is that if I'm not hurting anyone, not forcing my ways on others and that we live in a free society then what's the harm. If you like to learn about me I dedicated a non-fantasy blog (the real me) and it's ONLY at: https://kissralynnkay.blogspot.ca/ AND http://CriesOfTheGoth.com and nowhere else!

If you do want to get my attention and chat with me
The internet is full of creeps and trolls, for this reason I want a verified picture of you consisting of non nude portrait picture of your face, holding a paper with my name and the days date “hand” written on it! So I know you are real! No exceptions to this rule and I'm not interested to hear why you need to be anonymous be it you're the president of the world or the king of the universe. Without a verified picture I will not acknowledge your existence!

Also a note worthy of mentioning, don't send me anything sexual in nature and make sure your avatar is not a stupid dick picture and your handle is not sexual or you'll be on my bad list for eternity and beyond! The first contact has to be friendly, non sexual and without demands or opinions. Pretend your mother is sitting with you in our meeting in the presence of children in a church! You get the picture? If you pass this stage and I deem you “normal” i.e. not media brainwashed uttering what the billion steeple message me everyday then I will acknowledge you and respond.

I repeat: I'm not paid model, I don't care about subscribers, likes or followers:
I have my own rules I live by and they are in sharp contrast of society preaching. I live by the moto of: if freedom truly exists and you want to live free then RESPECT, DIGNITY, SUCCESS, ACCEPTED...etc. Are nothing but society created shackles preventing you from being you and experiencing life uninhibited! I live my life my way without restrictions. However, I'm mindful of others and I don't force my views and way of thinking on anyone. I follow my heart and people's opinions are not needed.

Sexual encounters, escorting, sugaring and casual sex partners

I felt the need to write something about this subject since I have many followers and I don't want anyone to confuse fantasy with reality. Having multiple sex partners, doing escorting and gang bangs or regular porn is extremely dangerous! Some of today's diseases can spread with saliva (i.e kissing, licking..etc) or even touching (early stage non-visible skin rashes...etc). Even protected sex with tested people is not 100% safe! Someone could be an infectious carrier and won't show on tests until about 3 months have passed. For you to be 100% safe is to have all parties tested for “all” STD's and have them confined (i.e. no possibility of any sexual, drugs...etc encounters) and repeat the FULL STD testing after 3 months and if clear only then you can be sure you wont contract diseases from them.

You will always put yourself at risk when you get intimate with someone. Exploring your sexual fantasies with your trusted regular lover (i.e. boyfriend, husband..etc) is the best way.

Everyone knows I play wild online and the emphasis is “play” i.e. not real! And from what I observed, some guys love to have unprotected sex and some responded to my fake escort ads in which I offered bareback experiences. I was shocked to how many of these guys responded to my ads. Some had girlfriends and wives putting them at risk and spreading diseases.

In conclusion, do not confuse my sexual fake-play with reality! Having multiple sexual partners or casual sex especially unprotected sex is irresponsible and mathematically speaking the odds are greatly not in your favor. This is also one of the main reasons why me and my boyfriend do not swing, have open relationships or include sex partners in our sexuality. Instead, we play-out fantasies together and share it online for whoever wants to see and enjoy them.

Be safe, stay wild and kick the shit always KissRa style baby ;)

Sunday, 19 February 2017

My sexuality

My Sexuality and why I do the online stuff that I do?
I received many messages from Internet users who sent me their verified pictures (i.e. they are not anonymous) and few of them even sent me additional info about themselves. I answered each one of them off course but I thought this subject was not going away anytime soon. Therefore, I am writing this blog.
First off I'll begin to say that what I post online is nothing other than sexual fantasies I play out with very close friends I've known and trusted all my life! Some of these sexual plays are my actual fantasies, some I've done because I was dared to and other sexual plays I've posted online are just me being curious to experience the damn thing and nothing more but it doesn't mean I liked it. I do not chat/collaborate/perform with random anonymous people about any of these fantasies! in order for me to do that I'll have to be attracted to you intellectually beforehand, also I must know you for quite a long time (i.e. years not weeks);  To entice me on an intellectual level, sending me anonymous porn messages accompanied with dick pictures puts you in the idiot pile :)
How the fantasy plays out is very important to us in the group. We go great lengths to make it as real as possible from location to the set and the state it was at when we film or took pictures. The final result should be as realistic amateur shoot as possible hence you live the fantasy by making it a reality in a limited sense. Online you can be anything and anyone,  playing out these fantasies can be quite an experience if you do it right and you are not afraid to be online like myself.  
Now that I've shed light on the above, in real life I'm nothing like the porn content you see of me online. In fact, each of these pictures, videos...etc are nothing but past moments in time. Each a specific instance where we felt something fucked up and wanted to act up on it. Each is a long forgotten memory that's been satisfied and no longer enticing, hence no repetition.
I get bored quickly, I'm curious, easily infatuated with uniqueness, simplicity and honesty. Kindness to others goes a long way with me. Having empathy for living things not being racist and not engaging in politics all traits I like in a person. And off course being very nice to me seals the deal;)
Even with this blog, and all what I write on my web site saying all the online porn is bull shit I still get the majority of people seeing one of my online videos and responding in reflection to that video so I play a long not to kill their fantasy because living in fantasy has it's therapeutic qualities for both sides. However, when some do wake up from their fantasy and realize I'm not a real escort or I don't date guys for money to give them the GFE or I'm not a stripper in a sleazy joint sucking dick and getting drunk, disappointment sets in :)  I tell these guys well, I didn't want to burst your bubble so I played a long, but had you done your homework you would've realized fairly quickly that everything I post anywhere, with the exception of my web site CriesofTheGoth.com and the blogs listed on my site; everything I post anywhere else is nothing but expended and long gone played out fantasies and it's all bull shit!
Am I going to keep shooting more content? No plans which means we are spontaneous. If the moment presents itself and we all feel the same way it will happen, otherwise bookmark my stuff and keep wanking to what you see haha. Remember, I don't shoot stuff to get you off, but if you happen to get off on the content I post then power to you ;)
Lastly, why post on different sites, why not just one? That's just me being courteous to you by categorizing my content so you can see what you like and avoid stuff that might gross you out. On my web site if you read the description under each site I post on you will know the type of content I post on there.
Hope this explains it to you and don't blame me if you read this blog and discover all your previous messages to me on porn sites were nothing but me playing along when I was bored ha ha :)
KissRa ;)

Sunday, 13 November 2016

Personal hygiene and grooming

I'm writing this blog to answer some of the questions I get from fans and also from experience meeting friends. Personal hygiene and grooming is very important! Always take care of yourself, brush your teeth, don't have bad breath, shower, clean yourself properly downstairs...etc.

I personally shave my pussy completely (bald beaver) and I like shaved men as well (not to be confused with me meeting strangers!). Getting pubes stuck between your teeth after a BJ/deep-throat is no fun, haha. How would you look to friends when you smile and there is pubes stuck between your teeth...yuck lol, so don't do that to your wife, girlfriend, mistress or significant other :)

I also do daily enema to cleanse/clean my butt :) I don't just do it for anal sex but it's a healthy habit. You can Google the benefits of enema's and the different types of solutions you can use for cleansing. I use coffee enemas then I rinse with water. Cleaning the pussy is important as well especially after peeing (for women). Using a douche not only feels good but it help me get off lol

So always brush your teeth, clean your tongue, shave your pubes (most women like it shaved), shower, clean your junk and make sure it smells good down there and you will get hotter sexual experience with your significant other ;)