My Sexuality and why I do the online stuff that I do?
I received many messages from Internet users who sent me their verified pictures (i.e. they are not anonymous) and few of them even sent me additional info about themselves. I answered each one of them off course but I thought this subject was not going away anytime soon. Therefore, I am writing this blog.
First off I'll begin to say that what I post online is nothing other than sexual fantasies I play out with very close friends I've known and trusted all my life! Some of these sexual plays are my actual fantasies, some I've done because I was dared to and other sexual plays I've posted online are just me being curious to experience the damn thing and nothing more but it doesn't mean I liked it. I do not chat/collaborate/perform with random anonymous people about any of these fantasies! in order for me to do that I'll have to be attracted to you intellectually beforehand, also I must know you for quite a long time (i.e. years not weeks); To entice me on an intellectual level, sending me anonymous porn messages accompanied with dick pictures puts you in the idiot pile :)
How the fantasy plays out is very important to us in the group. We go great lengths to make it as real as possible from location to the set and the state it was at when we film or took pictures. The final result should be as realistic amateur shoot as possible hence you live the fantasy by making it a reality in a limited sense. Online you can be anything and anyone, playing out these fantasies can be quite an experience if you do it right and you are not afraid to be online like myself.
Now that I've shed light on the above, in real life I'm nothing like the porn content you see of me online. In fact, each of these pictures, videos...etc are nothing but past moments in time. Each a specific instance where we felt something fucked up and wanted to act up on it. Each is a long forgotten memory that's been satisfied and no longer enticing, hence no repetition.
I get bored quickly, I'm curious, easily infatuated with uniqueness, simplicity and honesty. Kindness to others goes a long way with me. Having empathy for living things not being racist and not engaging in politics all traits I like in a person. And off course being very nice to me seals the deal;)
Even with this blog, and all what I write on my web site saying all the online porn is bull shit I still get the majority of people seeing one of my online videos and responding in reflection to that video so I play a long not to kill their fantasy because living in fantasy has it's therapeutic qualities for both sides. However, when some do wake up from their fantasy and realize I'm not a real escort or I don't date guys for money to give them the GFE or I'm not a stripper in a sleazy joint sucking dick and getting drunk, disappointment sets in :) I tell these guys well, I didn't want to burst your bubble so I played a long, but had you done your homework you would've realized fairly quickly that everything I post anywhere, with the exception of my web site CriesofTheGoth.com and the blogs listed on my site; everything I post anywhere else is nothing but expended and long gone played out fantasies and it's all bull shit!
Am I going to keep shooting more content? No plans which means we are spontaneous. If the moment presents itself and we all feel the same way it will happen, otherwise bookmark my stuff and keep wanking to what you see haha. Remember, I don't shoot stuff to get you off, but if you happen to get off on the content I post then power to you ;)
Lastly, why post on different sites, why not just one? That's just me being courteous to you by categorizing my content so you can see what you like and avoid stuff that might gross you out. On my web site if you read the description under each site I post on you will know the type of content I post on there.
Hope this explains it to you and don't blame me if you read this blog and discover all your previous messages to me on porn sites were nothing but me playing along when I was bored ha ha :)