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The Real Me to the World


I have decided to come out with a new revelation in my life, to show the world my true self, in terms of sexual orientation and my true self that I always  wanted to be but could not due to society imposed rules. I am a lesbian. I have been with my partner Isydia since high school and during those years we enjoyed each other on a spiritual level rather than sexual which I enjoyed a great deal.


For many years, I have had to hide who I truly wanted to be and it was an internal struggle. Most of my life I was expected to be feminine cutsie, and girlie, a sexual magnet for guys. I was not that inside where it counts. I believe I was different from most girls/women but no more. I am now me.  


Isydia always had a unique vibe to him, which did not include the normal male sexual views, we connected on a different level which did not exist at the time we met, except when we were together. We loved having fun, the type of fun that most people did not understand. I.E. doing things we loved at the same time enjoying each other's company.


My true self was always feminine masculine oriented, from a young age I always felt more comfortable in jeans, tshirt and minimum makeup rather than revealing clothes that attracted guys in a sexual way. Throughout our relationship, Isydia exhibited many feminine traits: he loved shopping and matching outfits,  he always had a keen eye for clothes and helped me shape my style. 


I have now adopted a more feminine masculine look today, which I believe always suited me.


I have come to realize that over the years, perhaps I have suppressed Isydia of who he wanted to be, his true self because I saw things on a more logical level. 


After much time has passed, we both decided to throw the preconceived shackles of society's impositions on people, and come out as what we really are and at the same time, show the world this is us, and we are enjoying life, it is too short.


I am happier than I have ever been coming out as lesbian who loves one person, for life Isydia. Today, life reached a critical point in time, where there is no room for fakery in terms of who a person really is in terms of gender, personality traits, and their inner self. Most people live double lives  in order to avoid consequences that they believe will impact them to a level where they will not be able to recover. The reason behind my ability to come out is primarily due to my position in  life. I am free of pre- imposed commitments such as family, high position in a job, a community where reputation is a part of life to consider because it comes down to what others will say, think or do when they hear. 


Who am I? I am a  Boyish-Feminin-DOMINATRIX, which means that I am a lesbian Domme/Mistress  with a boyish style, not typical of most femdommes. I enjoy dominating men and putting them in their place, without shaming them. I have come to learn that men who serve dominant women are insecure and embarrassed about their lack of “manhood”. I try to ease them into the sub role by of course keeping everything confidential, and getting a concise understanding of how they want to act out their kinks and fetishes. I try to make their fantasy come alive in their mind, even though I am virtual online, but I believe the power of mind is the strongest when it comes to creating a pretend, fantasy reality. 


At the same time, my partner Sara who is a trans woman and I being lesbian makes things a lot more comfortable. I am not looking for a relationship. I am in one with Sara, she likes the idea of polyamourous  relationships, I  am willing to entertain the idea IF WE find someone who matches us. Both of us have to consent. 


Right now, both Sara and I have embarked on a new journey in our life together which spans decades, and let me say we have had quite the roller coaster ride in terms of journeys in our life together nothing ordinary. We are both proud of those journeys and do not regret a single one. However, this new beginning of coming out Sara as trans and me lesbian will be the most liberating. 


What is my style when I say boyish feminine, well I have invented my own. I am grounded, logical in mentality, I analyze and dissect the personalities of people all based on experience as a Mistress and an online virtual adult entertainer. Extensive time, consistent actions not just a smile, a nice gesture and overnight I trust the person. I dress my part and I act accordingly, but, I also have a fun side that I share with Sara and our friends. I never judge anyone based on how they look, but personality traits are what counts with me but over extended time.



















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